Monday, January 10, 2011
MM #13: Yeah, I got nothing
Oh. Em. GEE! Its Monday again already?!? I just can't believe how quickly time is passing. I had forgotten. I had forgotten that being a SAHM is a job that never ends. I had forgotten how much time laundry, food prep, child care, cleaning and errands can eat up. I had forgotten the part where you work from before sunrise to well after sunset without breaks, or thanks, or even a moment of peace.
I had forgotten how wild and crazy and mostly wonderful this ride is! My Punkin-Pie-Baby-Girl has turned 5! And something about 5 seems SO MUCH OLDER than 4. (I have no idea why). My Bunny-Boo is turning 3 this week. THREE years since my baby was born, and I'm starting to feel like one of those Mom's; you know, the ones without infants in her arms, or toddlers hanging from her legs. I'm starting to feel, like, well, ME again. Its weird. Mostly because the last time I really remember seeing ME, I was younger and thinner and much more clever. But, here I am, recognizable.
Its wonderful. And scary. To remember Who I Am. To realize how lost I was. I know there are Moms out there who manage to keep themselves intact even after they have kids - even with infants. I admire them. I have been known to analyze them in an effort to figure out just what it is they do. But, I've found nothing - no secrets to Hanging On To Yourself Whilst A Baby is Hanging On You.
There are no words of wisdom, or questions for reflection today. Just some ramblings. You see, usually, by the time you-all see these words here, I've been working on them for a bit. But, this week, nothing I had prepared, nothing I had thought of; nothing seemed to reflect where I am right now. And so, I'm left with only this to say:
Hello World, its me - Amie!